Back Then

Big girls don’t cry
But I was young when I met you,
in so many ways.

So we’ll take this back to those times
When it was still ok to wear your feelings
on the sleeve of a thrift store coat.

Life was always changing then
You were my world
And I was who you wanted me to be.

We explored every street, every stream
Every path that could be followed or cut out
Learned to define ourselves
And our world

We fought and we made up
We loved and we hurt each other,
And eventually,
We parted ways

In some corner of my mind,
I always thought you’d be there
My first love…
My first fuck…
My first foray into adulthood…
But the phone rang yesterday,
And they told me you were dead.